Getting better

SO I did really good yesterday! I have a usual trend where I do soooo good during the day but as soon as I tuck the little munchkins in bed its like I lose my brain and want to eat everything in sight. I cant even think straight, It is like a serious addiction I have!

BUT

yesterday I did get those cravings, but instead of eating my usual ice cream, chips and salsa etc., I had an apple! I know I shouldnt have eaten anything, but its progress!

I have a run planned with a close friend today! Im excited to start running again. Its been way too long and I truly miss it!








Heres to a better way of life! and to a good day!!!


***UPDATE
I just got back from working out with my friend and man, did it feel good. I have WAY more energy (how does that work?) then I have in weeks and she told me about this cool App called Lose It from itunes! It helps track and maintain weight loss and exercize! I am so excited about it! I think it will really help me! YAY for a god day!

Change

Ive had enough! I am tired of looking in the mirror and not being happy with what I see. I am tired of always feeling tired and sluggish, and just wanting to stay in bed. Im tired of seeing a cute outfit but cant even try it on because I know it wont look good because of my weight. Im tired of seeing the numbers on the scale, not only NOT going down, but go up!

IM TIRED!!!!

SO what do I do about it?

I change what im doing!

change  

/CHānj/

Verb Make or become different: "a proposal to change the law"; "beginning to change from green to gold".

Noun The act or instance of making or becoming different.

Synonyms verb.   alter - exchange - vary - shift - convert - transform noun.   alteration - shift - variation - exchange - mutation

Im not usually very good with change, and maybe this is why it has taken me so long to do it. I have tried many times before with varying versions of success but never a full transformation. I think that I start out too big, and expect the change to happen over night. In theory, I know this cant happen, but somehow I still expect it to.

I will use this blog to hold be accountable. I want so badly to love myself again and enjoy being me, which hasnt happened for a long time. Dont get me wrong, I have a great life. An amazing husband who loves me no matter what, and 3 beautiful children who I absolutely adore. But until I can LOVE myself again, I cant feel that happiness.

Starting weight: 188 lbs

Measurements:

stomach around belly button :43 in.

Waist: where I 'wear my pants: 40.5 in.

hips: 45in.

Under bust:37 in.

Bust: 42.75 in

Right thigh: 27 in.

Right calf: 15.75 in.

right bicep: 15 in.

So there you have it! Its all on the table and Im ready for change!