Change

Ive had enough! I am tired of looking in the mirror and not being happy with what I see. I am tired of always feeling tired and sluggish, and just wanting to stay in bed. Im tired of seeing a cute outfit but cant even try it on because I know it wont look good because of my weight. Im tired of seeing the numbers on the scale, not only NOT going down, but go up!

IM TIRED!!!!

SO what do I do about it?

I change what im doing!

change  

/CHānj/

Verb Make or become different: "a proposal to change the law"; "beginning to change from green to gold".

Noun The act or instance of making or becoming different.

Synonyms verb.   alter - exchange - vary - shift - convert - transform noun.   alteration - shift - variation - exchange - mutation

Im not usually very good with change, and maybe this is why it has taken me so long to do it. I have tried many times before with varying versions of success but never a full transformation. I think that I start out too big, and expect the change to happen over night. In theory, I know this cant happen, but somehow I still expect it to.

I will use this blog to hold be accountable. I want so badly to love myself again and enjoy being me, which hasnt happened for a long time. Dont get me wrong, I have a great life. An amazing husband who loves me no matter what, and 3 beautiful children who I absolutely adore. But until I can LOVE myself again, I cant feel that happiness.

Starting weight: 188 lbs

Measurements:

stomach around belly button :43 in.

Waist: where I 'wear my pants: 40.5 in.

hips: 45in.

Under bust:37 in.

Bust: 42.75 in

Right thigh: 27 in.

Right calf: 15.75 in.

right bicep: 15 in.

So there you have it! Its all on the table and Im ready for change!